It’s taken another monumental societal crisis for me to realize that creativity is my coping mechanism, and it’s not always fun.
I can spend months with a parched urge for creativity, and right now it’s coming in like a flood. Too many thoughts to write down, organize, or explore.
When I was about 8 or so, my oldest brother built me my first pc. He even spray-painted the tower hot pink and found Barbie brand stickers with letters to write out my nickname down the side. He’s likely a genius, so he helped me make a local radio station, websites, and introduced me to the different things I could do on a computer. He was always trying to inspire me; to get me excited and show me all of the possibilities of things I could do and make myself. I remember the first time he made me a website. He had me draw the buttons, and then he scanned in my artwork and made them work. There in the browser was my sloppy childhood handwriting, traced and formatted to link to another page. It was like magic. While I didn’t excel in web design or take a special interest in coding like he may have hoped, he did instill a love of computers, the internet, and that I didn’t have to just be a consumer, I could be a creator.
Amidst what seems like the downfall of our country, my mind is generating ideas at an exhausting rate – what can I do, how can I help, how can I still participate in the internet without using the sites that have aligned themselves with villainous overlords.
After milling it over, and realizing I may not settle on anything perfect or concrete anytime soon, I purchased this domain on 02.18.25.
Is it vain to create a personal site during this time? I don’t really know if I have the time or fucks to care. This is how I’m wired and I’m going to try to use it to uplift local businesses and share with my community. I’ll upload sketches and recent projects for those who enjoy such content. Soon I hope to provide more for my community, and that is in the works.
Take care out there,
Cassandra
Sugarbat Castle 
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